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There are moments when you feel overwhelmed by such deep levels of satisfaction that few things can express it. It’s just far too subtle to be able to communicate, unfortunately for you, it’s far too sublime for me to just let it pass without comment.
Basically, I know that a new job/promotion is pretty much in the bag. I’m not going to put the cart before the horse, but it feels nice knowing that the work I’m doing is going to still be mine down the road. When I got bumped up to this position last July, I knew it was essentially an internship and that I was really just filling in until the next person came along. At the turn of the year I got a little depressed because I knew it was only six months until I would be done here at the library(where I’ve been working since early 2002). Last month I knew I was going to have to begin a job hunt and begin applying and interviewing at various places. I enjoy the library system and atmosphere(very calm!), and so I figured I’d apply at the Columbus Metropolitan Library first. I hadn’t done that yet and then a few weeks ago an opportunity presented itself, and I took it.
It’s funny now to remember last June when Mary retired. I was a project student(which pays pretty nice), but I knew I was planning to leave OSU and so the same feeling of ‘things are going to end soon’ pretty much dominated my mind. Well I sat about 7 feet away from where Mary did, and it was just the most surreal feeling sitting there all of a sudden realizing that it was going to be a choice between ‘sit here, leave eventually, and only god knows what happens after that’ and ‘go inquire about the job’. It was just such a black & white decision defined by fear(sit and leave) and being opportunistic(get up and ask). I guess it’s kind of like asking that really hot girl(or guy) out when you have no idea what they’ll say.
I cannot imagine how miserable I would have been had I sat there and then saw some pretentious grad student sitting in what could have been my chair for the last few weeks before diving off into the abyss of the job market(with no degree notably). Instead, I’ve got tons more real workplace experience in hand…er mind?….and now have my path set. I’ve mention the game civilization before. That’s pretty much what I do. Manage resources. Just like some who prefer action/adventure games would be horrifically bored by a game like civilization, I can understand how a job like this could bore those who prefer a more action/adventure type of job. Nevertheless, it’s fun figuring out ways to increase efficiency. I never knew when I was 16/17 playing civilization for months and months at a time just how much those skills would prove useful. It’s just plain cool.
I guess all of this just sunk in today and it’s just seeping into my bones it seems. The only comparable feeling I can think of is the kind when you find a song that just echoes with your current good mood(remember diamond body). This is why I put up Alphadelta’s Speechless. This is slightly off topic, but the one thing I know for sure is that I want to be with the kind of girl that when I discover these kinds of songs, I can play them with her and she’d like them just as much. ‘You have to hear this song!’….5 minutes later…..’Is that awesome or what?’ ‘It really is. J’. That kind of reciprocal relationship could also bring about the kind of deep satisfaction I was attempting to explain earlier. Or! Or being in that kind of reciprocal relationship and just holding her close as she tastes ecstasy. Yeah, that’d be up there too.
Well I got off topic and a little delusional, but anyways. Just listen to the song and know that I am in an extraordinarily sexy mood right now. That’s strange too. It’s too hot outside. I’m a scorpio, and usually only get in these moods during the winter. Who knew?
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