August 27, 2006
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Classic Romance
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Loneliness
http://www.watermarkradio.com/Igniter%20-%20Lonely%20People-4.jpg
My Father, Stepmother and I went to celebrate the new job Friday night. After eating a nice meal at Bob Evans we went to the Ohio Theater which has apparently being running a summer long classics marathon of some kind. I looked in the brochure and they played Wizard of Oz not too long ago. Gone with the Wind. Citizen Kane. I mean these are the real classics. I looked for, but couldn’t find, To Kill A Mockingbird and Mr. Smith Goes to Washington. Those are two of my favorites(my high school government teacher would be proud). Anyways, so what does any of that have to do with loneliness?
I’ve had it on my mind all weekend that it’d be great to have a companion. Not a ‘girlfriend’, or anything else. The word for it is companion. Or maybe team-mate. I don’t know. When I was sitting in the theatre Friday watching Chinatown, every so often I’d look around and the place was filled with a lot of elderly couples. The cool thing was that they were all dressed up for a night on the town. Now chinatown was from ’76. But I could see how an elderly couple would enjoy getting dressed up to go see Wizard of Oz just like they did back when they were dating in the 30′s. And the theatre, this isn’t some amc ‘pirates of the caribbean’ theatre. It’s got plush seats, doormen, and old style ticket booths. I mean the place is just classic in every way. Which led to….
There’s just some kind of mysterious quality about the relationship between an elderly man and woman that….well…I want. You can just sense that they are companions and teammates in life and its just awesome really. I don’t know if it’s possible to find that with a 24 or 25 year old girl. And thats not because of anything on their part. I don’t know if I’m actually capable of seeing past the annoying b.s. we young people get ourselves into for the sake of that little word ‘love’. I think that those individuals who have ‘been there’ ‘done that’ for 50 years have learned not to worry about the meaningless b.s. What’s that old phrase? “Youth is wasted on the young”. I don’t think I’m wasting my youth, but I do sometimes wonder if I’m wasting my time. Not that being in love is the pinnacle of existence or anything, but there sure are times where it’d be nice.
Take a look at the girl in the picture I posted up there. Somehow, I could see her as the type of girl who would enjoy going to the Ohio Theatre for a night out over just about anywhere else. I’m still settling into the whole job thing(believe me, I haven’t come close to fully adjusting), but I’m thinking about keeping an eye for a girl like that. I don’t really know much of anything(In truth, were my soul laid bare you’d just see a walking series of assumptions), but there are just days where I’m tired of feeling lonely. It’d be nice to come home to a girl like that. To a relationship like that.
A question to leave you with: Do you think its possible to sense the kind of love a person is capable of giving? Or is it just a ‘wait and see’.
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Answer: In some cases I do believe it is possible, others are ‘wait and see.’ I’ve known some that give me the feeling of a loving/caring person and I find out later that they prove me wrong….and sometimes they prove me right. The love a person gives out is, in every case, a fickle thing and it’s always in direct proportion to the life they lived before meeting you. It’ll surprise you sometimes, well…all the time. Yes, I do believe it’s possible to sense their love. However, unless your willing to dig for it, you’ll never know how much love they are willing to give…..and believe me, the amount can be tremendous.
ah, gregory peck. i had no idea you were so into the classics! you ever watch turner classic movies on cable? not sure if you have cable or not. i watched it all the time when i was living with my parents. awesome stuff! i remember reading ‘to kill a mockingbird’ way back in grade school. and of course after we read the book, we watched the movie. even then i enjoyed it. sounds like the theater from ‘the majestic’ with jim carrey. always thought it would be cool to have a theater like that.
as for the question, i think it’s a bit of both. i think deep down, you sense it. but on the surface one is cautious and might dismiss what they sense based on the way the world is and the fact that appearances can be deceiving. (i’ve learned that about a few so called friends of mine recently.) not to mention that sometimes people overlook things they sense just to get a taste of what they truly want but can’t get from that source. take my aunt for example. i’m sure she knows the guy she’s with isn’t what she’s looking for. she wanted to have kids (he’s had two and they are grown. from a previous marriage.) but he’s been ‘fixed’ and can’t. plus he smokes and drinks and in general isn’t all that great for her and i don’t like him at all. but she’s been alone so long that she’s to the point where she settled for whatever ‘love’ she can get. just promise me (and yourself) that you will never do that to yourself. (granted she’s is about twice our age so i doubt you have to worry about that.) in all honesty, the aunt i’m talking about is my bio mom, so she did have a kid, just not one she got to raise herself. i think that one day you will find what you are looking for, when you least expect it. i know it’s out there. i’ve seen it. i’ve experienced some of it, to a degree. (some of what you see in the older generation is simple due to time and a life lived with that person.) and it’s not just with the love of your life. i’ve experienced some of what you are talking about with a very select few of my closest friends. where you just connect in a way that is unexplainable.