December 20, 2012

• CBT (Part 6)

  Tuesday’s CBT session was a breakthrough session. Remember last time I mentioned that the session didn’t do much for me? Well this time it did. I gave my doctor my notebook of short stories from early 2006 up through the summer of 2007(including one false start that was written just before I was admitted to the hospital for the first time). Here are a couple of bombs I’m about to drop on those who are not on my protected post list. I admitted to him that I was sexually abused as a kid. I admitted to him that I identify as asexual, as well. Are the two related? Who knows? He also recommended that I not be so introspective in the future. Whether this is because I truly am too introspective or because I’m reflecting on the therapy without the help of a professional, I don’t know. I’ll just try to stop making my own little breakthroughs without his assistance from now on.

  For those who are joining me late, here is a LINK to Part 5.

  1. Separation Anxiety. On Saturday evening my family went to a play at our church. Everyone was gone until about 7:20. Normally anywhere from 6 to 7 is when I start to get edgy about whether something has happened. This time though my youngest brother sent me a text around 5:30 letting me know that the play was over and that they were going to get something to eat. That one text was all I needed to ease any possible tension over the next two hours. However, my doctor suggested that next time I not be notified so that I can actually experience the anxiety and prove to myself that I can manage it using the techniques I’ve learned from both him and the Feeling Good Handbook.

  2. Dogs. I did not have any experience with dogs over the past two weeks. My doctor and I will be going over the sense of invasion next session though.

  3. Weddings. I met with my friend for pizza(he actually picked me up since I don’t drive) and we spent most of the time catching up and really just finding out if the person we each knew on the internet was the same in real life. In my view, he hasn’t changed all that much since high school. I think then, that who he is online is the same as who he is in real life. I can only hope that I was the same person as I am online. His wife was at a musical for the evening so it was just the two of us eating pizza. At some point early next year she will accompany him from what I understand and to that I say that’s a good thing. I will be a little more nervous meeting her than I was him, but I need to face that anxiety. He’s a decent guy so I figure she’s going to be a decent girl and I will simply focus on that. .

  @megabyyte @mypublicsite @foodhog @light_blue_fables @isitreal_no @heytherejoann

  And congrats to @heytherejoann on graduating college. She is my editor so I kinda hope that I can help her become rich!!!

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